Remorse...what's the point

I'v been wondering these few months...one particular word to describe how i felt..

REGRET.... ( plus lil' of remorse )

This feeling developed in me since the day i got my results for STPM.
Telling the truth, and to be honest..im totally devastated!! just like end of the world.
I can't focus on work that day, been forgetting this and that...felt like a human body without a soul...a walking carcase as it.
Been thinking alot too these few months...that what i'm goin to be, or what i'm going to do next.
Some might say "haiya,u'v been thnking too much "larh"...but actually...it's not at all...i don't know what my future holds...din't know how far i'm goin to go..
This blog is full of confusion..maybe i din't have any point in writing this blog..and i don't actually know what i wish to present to my readers...
i really do hope that i will find the will and courage to stand up and something that will grant me a heart of perseverence ..well...at least to persevere within this time of confusion...
untill that day im clear what i'm going to do..i do pray i have the patience to continue what i'm doing.